Saturday, January 10, 2009
Went to Nanyang Polytechnic today to help out in the ushering. Cuz I'm such a nice guy.
It was really an interesting experience for me as I expended my knowledge of bridging the awkwardness that exists between two strangers. Be it boy or girl. And I've found out that most...most...people will actually open up and try to get along. This has improved me in my position as Social Welfare...person...in Jubilate. But through this lesson, I've also learnt that I still cannot smile for crap. What a god-gives-and-god-takes moment huh...damn it.
Anyways, I've been pondering and guessing...then thinking and guessing...then dreamt and wished...then thought and reflected...and now I've finally decided. Sadly, it's not going to be how I want things to be. It never has. And might never be. Some things are just not meant to be. Others are just...others. It's just so mixed up and hard to understand only cuz it's not what I want.
I've to be the dude I wish I was. Cuz the dude I am now...sucks. Sigh. How Now Brown Cow?
I love my guitar 11:49 pm♥
