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aLoY
Aloysius (Caius)
22 August
same as
LC

Loves: My Band-Leaven, whatever's left of LC, Being [Band Leader], My Ex, my kaki(s), slacking
Pissed At: bimbos, UnLeaven and the people who support it, NS, Myself (somtimes)

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Thursday, November 27, 2008

Today, I did nothing but staring at my com's screen. Pondering. Reflecting. Wishing. As memories and old whispers wash over my mind, I couldn't help but feel a mixed feeling of heartache, regret and guilt. Sigh.

Of all the ways you could teach me dear Lord, you HAD to tell it to me THIS way. I can only hope and have faith in his work and pray that it's...really..for the best. But...in what way is it best? And best for whom? It's definitely not the best for all. So I hope it...isn't...best for me. I really do. Partly cuz by knowing it's best for the other person, a part of me feels relived. Though not for myself, but for her.

However, for her sake, for mine and everybody else's, I have to live on and start livin'. But nobody knows the only way is for her to be genuinely and innocently happy like she was before. Cuz only then can I ever truly be happy for her. I'm sorry this had to happen.

I'm starting up Leaven, trying to make it wake up it's idea after a long..needed..break. I'm holding our first practise at our Lead singer, Zac's, humble...room. Yes, in his small little..but cozy room. Cuz the drums are there and we prefer to shift all of our equipment up, rather than bring the drums down. I mean...we might disturb Zac's family (with the helter-skelter sound waves we call music) anyways.

Songlist:

Who Did You Think I Was

Daughters

Bigger Than My Body

----All by John Mayer----

When You Were Young

Read My Mind

----Both by The Killers----

I'm also thinking of adding Kidnap My Heart by The Click Five and No Such Thing by John Mayer. But I think we should start slow. Not really in the mood to do stuff anyway. But for her sake, I know I have to try...
I love my guitar 12:14 am♥