Sunday, November 16, 2008
First mass in a loooong time. It sort of gave me a little comfort praising God. But I can't help but still feel abit...lost. It's like taking a long road by yourself. A long road which you know will be difficult...and lonely. Some people might say stuff like "act your age man!" or "be a man about it dude! Do the right thing!". But did you ever stop to think what might be the right thing? Like the right thing for whose or which purpose??
Everyone has his or her own feelings which every MF must respect no matter what. Feelings...and opinions. 'Cuz in the end, that's what makes each and everyone of us special and unique. Some people might mistake influence from guidance. But they cannot be blamed nor questioned. It IS a very fine line...is it not?
But after all that's said and done, how correct each person thinks must always be left to that person...nobody else.
Back to the long road...
Yes it IS lonely. And everybody is entitled to a companion...pets and God aside. Not sure yours is the right one? Let me guide you...
First. I don't know about you, but I wouldn't like some boring stoner to journey with me...so that someone must be one whom you would NEVER be bored of.
Second. This long journey will be rough and difficult. So you need someone whom you can really trust to support you whenever you're down. Always.
This road, if you have yet to realise, is long. NO. I have no idea how long it is. Anyway, you have to love this person more than just...enough...till you reach...well...the end. However, as most of you should have realised, you loving him/her wouldn't be enough. so..duh...the other person has to love you back. Now here's the tricky part. Most of us might...will not be able to tell this. For those who know you've found The One for you, good, the job's half done. For the unlucky rest of you...may the holy light of God help you...really. 'Cuz no one else can.
Once you've found The One...no matter what, never let her/him go. YOU should know how hard it is to find someone in this world to be your very own. For those who think you have no problem finding girls/guys, you are missing out on something incredible...AND...you have absolutely NO idea what I'm talking about...AND..you just piss me off. This particular person isn't just someone whom you can just imagine spending time with. I don't know how to describe it properly, but for me, I imagine her and me growing old together...she, still smiling back at me. Saying the most heart peircing words..."I still love you...dear". You will feel an undescribable emotion everytime he/she says "I love you". You would just wish you could video it evertime so that you could hit the [playback] button and...just..watch it. For in the end of all things...you will only be left with bitter-sweet memories.
So if you've found your companion...no! don't freaking start video-ing everything! What I'm trying to say is...please...cherish him/her. Never forget to tell her how much you "still love her". Because on this long road with you...she deserves to know....YOU..are The One for her.
I love my guitar 10:30 pm♥
